Day 6

God. I wobble back and forth, back and forth. I had another lapse today, just thinking about how much I miss her. I'm so pathetic.

I wish I could be hard like she is. To just give it up so easily. Drop me out of her thoughts completely.

Oh well. Tomorrow's another wonderful day.

Still working out though... sore as all hell, and because I forgot my Crocs today, I walked on the treadmill in my work shoes. I think I have blisters forming on the bottoms of my feet. Ugh.

Update: Of course, I'm still thinking about things. I'm over analyzing it to death. I wonder if this part of my life will turn out to be like the summer after high school graduation or high school. High school was horrible. I hated it. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. That summer after high school though, I look back on as probably the best time of my life. I didn't know it at the time though. I just wonder where on the spectrum my marriage to Rachel will fall.